Living in Survival Mode
If you had met me when I was 35 years old, you would have never guessed that I’d “grow up” to be a life coach. In fact, what I really needed back then was my own life coach. I spent my adult life as the President and CEO of our multimillion dollar family steel business, driven by the need to be “successful,” to live up to my parents’ expectations, and to provide financially for my family. To say I was stressed out would be an understatement. To say I was happy would be a lie. I was in survival mode: eat, sleep, work, repeat. Don’t get me wrong, I had a wonderful life by all accounts and purposes. I had a wife who I loved, three wonderful children, a beautiful house with a swimming pool in the yard, and family vacations to look forward to a few times a year. From the outside, my life looked quite perfect. But I was so focused on being something I wasn’t, so dedicated to growing a business I didn’t even really like, so committed to living up to everyone else’s expectations, that I didn’t realize that choosing happiness was even an option.
Unfortunately, my health was the first thing to go. I had been diagnosed with Crohn’s in my 20s—a disease that’s known to be linked to stress—and struggled to find a cocktail of meds that would ease the debilitating symptoms I was experiencing. By the time I was 50, in what was supposed to be the height of my career, I was in and out of the hospital awaiting my first Crohn’s surgery. And, while it might sound cliché, as I lay there in the recovery room (with my middle son down the hall also undergoing his own gastrointestinal surgery for ulcerative colitis) I realized that something was not right and I could no longer go on living the way I had been. I didn’t want profits to be my guiding force. I didn’t want to sacrifice my health and wellbeing for some vision of “success” my parents had instilled in me—without my input. I didn’t want to feel exhausted, uninspired, aggravated, and unhappy almost all of the time.
So I took a leap—metaphorically of course—and I jumped off the fast track to mental breakdown and
into what I’ve come to call my journey of self-discovery.
From Breakdown to Breakthrough
They say sometimes you have to hit rock bottom before you can change your life—and while perhaps that was the case for me, one of the reasons I do what I do is to help others avoid that deep, dark place at the bottom of the pit where inspiration is really hard to find.
For me, the climb back up was out of necessity. I simply couldn’t continue living the way I was living. It would take far too long to tell you the whole story of my transformation here, but you can read about it in the book I co-authored with my son, Empowered YOUth: A Father and Son’s Journey to Conscious Living (Hay House) if you are interested.
What I will tell you is that one step at a time I began to change the way I thought, the way I acted, and the way I lived my life. It did not happen overnight. And the learning and growth continue to this day. I worked with many life coaches over the years, I read every self-help and personal empowerment book I could get my hands on, I watched documentaries, listened to audio recordings, read articles, attended intensive workshops, and did a lot of work on myself. I learned to meditate. I learned to free-flow journal. I learned to accept and love myself for who I was. And all of that learning and growth paid off in more ways than I ever could have imagined.
I am happy. I live life the way I want to live it. I understand my own values and beliefs and conduct myself based on those. I am closer with my children than I ever was when they were growing up. I have a loving relationship with my wife, who happens to be my best friend. I get silly and play with my grandchildren, even though I never really played with my own children. I do what I love every single day, and I get to help people in the process. It’s the best possible life, and I’m living it.
Are You Ready For Change?
If any of that resonated with you, then you’ve come to the right place. Even if you know that what you’re going through is much worse than what I lived through. Even if you’re only experiencing a tenth of the insecurity, stress, frustration, anxiety, or dis-ease that I lived with. No matter what your story is—you’re exactly where you need to be.
Because no matter how difficult things are, how frustrating or hopeless or stressful they seem, there’s always something you can do about it. As a Coach I’ve worked with hundreds of people across Canada and the United States. I work with executives, doctors, entrepreneurs, parents, students, couples, patients, survivors, coaches, healers, ordinary people—anyone who, like me, wants to live a happier, more connected, less stressful life. I coach people through illness and recovery, relationships both at the beginning and the end, career transitions, parenting struggles, grief, reinvention, and more. I also help people find their own spiritual beliefs that they can feel comfortable with, as well as teach people how to connect with their intuition.
My clients say I’m a really good listener, that I’m authentic in what I teach and the way I live my life, I’m open-minded, non-judgmental, and create a space where people are free to be who they truly are, no matter what that is. I am blessed to have a beautiful space in Toronto from which I coach, both in person and on the phone, and I hope you’ll come see it for yourself.
Check out my website at http://awakeningtheself.com/
The Story of Shaltazar
A number of years ago, I free-flow journaling to process some of the hurt, challenges, and issues I had experienced in my life. Over a period of time, by choosing this form of “release,” I was able to quiet my obsessive mind and allow an inner knowing or essence to come forward and begin expressing itself.
In putting pen to paper in a free-flowing, relaxed way, I found that what appeared on the page in front of me felt “familiar” but wasn’t actually coming from me. I realized that in fact, I was channeling something bigger and more powerful than myself. I sensed that these messages were being told to me and felt compelled to continue writing, transcribing them to the best of my ability.
As I continued on my own journey of self-discovery, I’d often turn to these journal entries or messages, reading them to gain clarity about challenges or issues I was facing. I found them surprisingly insightful and helpful, often just the “answer” I was looking for. The more I integrated them, the more these teachings became a way of life that transformed everything about my existence.
I decided that these messages were too powerful to keep to myself and the importance of sharing them with as many people as possible became evident.
At first, I had no idea what form this would take. How would I share my private, handwritten journal entries in a way that would resonate and help others? I decided to comb through each journal entry, a purging of my innermost feelings, and extract the messages that could be shared. These messages had come to me through my pain and suffering, but when they stood on their own their power became even more profound. From years of journal entries came 16 distinct messages that I was excited to share with the world. These became the Messages from Shaltazar CD.
The more I developed my relationship with this invisible entity, the more it showed up in my life. It identified itself as Shaltazar. I tried not to question too often the details about what or who it was, because I was more interested in the wisdom that was coming through me when I connected to it.
In my one-on-one coaching sessions, I would often lead short guided meditations, and I found the influence and wisdom of Shaltazar coming through time and again. It started to feel as though Shaltazar was always there, hovering in the “background” of my life, coming forth to speak through me when the time was right. I had to learn to make space or establish the ideal conditions for Shaltazar to speak through me most clearly.
For years I had been leading meditation groups, and over time I realized that I could essentially “get out of the way” and allow the voice of Shaltazar to be heard by all those in attendance. I would speak, but the words were not my own. I was merely a channel for all this divine wisdom. Since the messages from Shaltazar had begun as the written word, it took me some time to get comfortable speaking them aloud as they came to me. At first, I felt uncomfortable, wondering if it would come across as though I was speaking as Shaltazar, which I knew I wasn’t. With time though I found my place as a channel, and as this ease was established the voice of Shaltazar became clearer.
I would record all the channellings I delivered to these meditation groups, wanting to be able to re-play them and really listen to the messages coming forth. Eventually I had them all transcribed into text. These channeled messages were longer and more complex than those I had journaled originally. Together they began to form an extensive body of Divine wisdom. None of these presented themselves in a logical or linear way—they just came through as they did. But what I found was that each could be categorized into a common theme or ‘teaching.’ While the messages were different—the themes kept coming up time and again.
Having already produced the 16 original Messages from Shaltazar CD, I wanted to share this more extensive body of wisdom with a wider audience. I contemplated compiling the longer channeled messages with the shorter written messages into a book. However, I have come to believe that this wisdom is best understood and integrated in a more sensory way. I therefore decided to create the Shaltazar website incorporating audio, video, and the written word in hopes of sharing this divine wisdom with as many people as possible all over the world.
Please visit the website and check out the “Teachings” or the “Messages” page to learn more about the wisdom of Shaltazar. You can listen to the messages while watching a mesmerizing kaleidoscope video as well as download your own copy of the text.
Check out the Shaltazar website at https://shaltazar.com/
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